THE MONTY TAPES Dev Grudge

Thirteen years young Jon Jon holdin the fort
Home invasion crashin dads debts come up short
Intruder bust in eyes wild for the score
I grab the piece heart poundin to the core

One shot two shots fatal in the night
Blood on the floor moms face full of fright
No legal heat but fear in her stare
Cold as ice they ship me to state care

One moment changes it all blood on my hands
Protect the home but lose the fams plans
Jon Jon dies that night in the flash of the fight
One moment and Im out in the light

Dads debts brought the devil to our door
I handled business but they feared me more
No tears from me just steel in my vein
Family fractures put me on the chain

State takes over Jon Jon no more
Enter MONTY the games just begun
From broken kid to king of the scene
Pride down at first but I rise from the dirt

State military school pleb life break me down
Hide the fear swallow pride wear the crown
Fights in the yard bruises build my name
Bribes to the guards now Im runnin the game

Dealin weight through the halls shot caller supreme
From broken kid to king of the scene
Pride down at first but I rise from the dirt
MONTY emergin makin pain convert

Pride down break me remake me strong
Hide the scars sing the hustlers song
Fights and bribes take over the yard
Pride down but MONTY hits hard

No more Jon Jon that boys long gone
Military grind turn weakness to brawn
Supplier smalltime need bigger fish to fry
Eyes on Mexico where the real kings lie

Small plugs couldn't hold hunger growlin' too loud
MONTY dip south Mexico callin' me proud
South Texas smugglers pulled me in like kinfolk
Fifteen deep in the dirt stackin' hundreds no joke
Hundred bands monthly rainin' harder than storms
Corvette Z06 gleamin' red like fresh wounds warm
F-250 saggin' low bed packed wall to wall green
Bad bitches double ridin' livin' scenes from a dream
Clubs in the valley poppin' bottles on ice flow
Steaks at the spot gold chains heavy glow
Private parties ragin' models dancin' till dawn
Young kingpin flexin' thought the crown was on

We lived it up heavy jetskis on the lake
Dirt bikes tearin' trails no brakes on the fate

Not a concept real wins floodin' the bag
Hundred K months young and never look back
Corvette roarin' wild truck stuffed with that green
MONTY on top livin' lavish the scene
Not a concept we was kings for a minute
Livin' it up till the shadows crept in it

Mob rode tight barbecues and bond fires lit
Tattoos fresh stories traded loyalty legit
Money bought the toys boats on the Rio bank
Girls from both sides nights we never thanked
We partied like tomorrow owed us the debt
Strip clubs rainin' blues no regrets yet
But fifteen-year-old eyes couldn't spot the real threat
Thought we ran the border independent set

Cartels lurkin' silent watchin' kids eat they plate
Envy brewin' poison sealin' all our fate

Cartels dont negotiate learned it in the fire
Mexico was smooth till the devils conspire
F250 rollin deep packages strapped tight
Michael drivin Justin shotgun middle seat my life

Didnt call shotgun that day fate flipped the game
Two cars boxed us in AKs sprayed the frame
Seventy four rounds tore the truck paper thin
Engine block took the storm saved me within

Justins bone shard stuck deep in my cheek
Blood poured like rain but most wasnt me
Michael slumped silent Justin gasped his last
I played dead in the puddle let the pain pass

When it rains it bleeds cartel thunder crash
Brothers lost forever souls turned to ash
Luck or Gods hand they skipped the tap on me
When it rains it bleeds left MONTY to flee

They emptied the load drove off laughin loud
I crawled from the wreck heart wrapped in shroud
Stripped at the Rio swam cold and afraid
Crossed back to Texas ghosts in every wave

Two days passed quiet then the night turned red
Nine of the thirteen mob executed in bed
Targets painted clear cartel cleaned the slate
MONTY alone now runnin with hate

Pills to kill the screams lean to drown the past
Broken young survivor turnin pain to ash

Uh... garage blood still fresh on the concrete, mayne...
Old valley enemy starin' back dead...
Wife's eyes cut deeper than the .45...
Can't bury the truth... feel me

Body heavy in the wheelbarrow, backyard midnight black,
Shovel bite the earth slow, sweat mix with the flashback.
JB turned Gringo quiet, diggin' graves for the past sins,
Old mob ties resurrect, pull me back in the spin.
Wife step out the door, porch light hit her face pale,
See the hole, see the shape, whole marriage derailed.
She knew the money clean now, but not where it root from,
Didn't know nights like this came with the kingdom.
Questions hang heavy, "Who is he? What you done?"
Truth spill like the blood, under that Texas moon.
Son sleep inside dreamin', innocent from the storm,
But mama's voice shake, "This life ain't the norm."
She offer the exit: pack light, leave the cash, disappear,
Or she tell the world everything, make the secret clear.
Can't raise hand to her, love too real for that dark,
So I take the walk alone, heart ripped apart.

Can't bury that... truth rise from the ground slow,
Secrets turn to ghosts, everywhere I go...
Bury the body deep, but the past won't sleep,
Can't bury that... pain cut too deep, mayne...
Can't bury that... love lost in the dirt,
Build it all clean, but the old life still hurt...

Load the truck light, no chains, no whips, no stack,
Drive south to the border, ain't never comin' back.
Mexico call again, brother's spot in the hills hide,
Gringo wanderin' empty, soul half died.
Wife's words echo loud, "Don't call, don't write, don't show,"
Kids' faces in the rearview, hardest lettin' go.
From sober kingpin to exile in the heat once more,
Back where the blood started, knockin' on death's door.
Can't bury the love, can't bury the guilt ride,
Every shovel of dirt just multiply the inside.
JB dream shatter quiet, pieces in the night wind,
Hustle gave everything... then took it again.

South Texas curses, cycle spinnin' round slow,
One grave in the yard... but the real one's in my soul
Dirt pile high... truth still breathin' underneath...
Gringo headin' south... three years of grief...
Can't bury that... ever... mayne...
Pain forever... feel me...

Exile south of the border brother's ranch dust and quiet
Days bleed into nights no hustle no riot
Safe from the feds safe from the old valley heat
But mind locked in prison ghosts walkin my feet
Wife's ultimatum echo kids' laughter fade distant
Backyard grave haunt dreams every choice feel twisted
No whips no stacks just time starin back cold
Three years wonderin if the heart ever heal old

Sun bake the regret tequila burn the flashbacks slow
Justin's bone shard memory blood rain I cant let go
Silence louder than screams mountains swallow the cries
Tired man breathin watchin life pass by

3 years wanderin lost in the silence deep
Safe in the shadows but nightmares dont sleep
Time heal slow wounds or just numb the bleed
3 years tired soul beggin for peace mayne

Life move on outside world spin without my weight
Brother talk deals soft open a guarded gate
Gringo fade slow JB whisper comin alive
Pay the price distant let the family survive
Kids grow in pictures wife's eyes colder than frost
Love buried backyard deep countin what it cost
Mental chains heavier than any prison steel
Three years teach patience make the broken kneel

Sunsets over hills paint redemption maybe real
But South Texas curses linger hard to kill
Tired of runnin inside ready for the next play
Deal struck in the quiet home callin far away

Fleein the valley where the cold rivers flow
South Texas nightmares got a death grip hold
Pills and lean tryna mute all the pain
Echoes of the past like a slow freight train
New York streets whispered thought I could hide
But feds came swift locked me deep inside
MONTY just a number on the concrete wall
Cell doors slam echoes like a hard fall

Walls closin in but I stand my ground
Findin light when the dark comes around
Seeds in the dirt start to rise and grow
Freedom the fire that I know

Incarcerated but my mind runs free
Gratitude the only golden key
God in the shadows feeds my sight
Incarcerated but I fight the night

Jail raised me cold turned pain to might
Liftin iron pages by pale moonlight
Yard politics schooled me in the game
Respect earned never plays the same
Out the gate fresh with a vision true
Sober mind hustlin life brand new
South Texas scars start to disappear
Lessons carved deep always near

Trap game wicked, pistols clickin' in the shadows,
Cash stacks heavy, but my soul light as a feather, hollow.
Stealin' sunsets, dealin' death wrapped in cellophane,
Sins so scarlet, even heaven turned away in shame.

Dance with the devil, every night another gamble,
Bloodstained sneakers, tear drops mix with the scramble.
Loyalty's a myth, trust just another word for debt,
Prayed to the pavement, where my broken dreams were fed.

Living in the chaos, where the screams don't make a sound,
Lost in the echo of the love I never found.
The streets raised me, but they never called me son,
Till the light cracked through and showed me what I'd done.

Then came a cry, so small it shattered all my chains,
Tiny fists writing redemption in my veins.
I died that night, but not the way the reaper planned,
Reborn in fatherhood, I finally understand.

Now I rock lullabies instead of weighing grams,
Trade the trap phone for tiny fingers in my hands.
Every sunrise feels like mercy, soft and pure,
The life I threw away came back to make me sure.

Started as Master E innocent eyes in the storm
Lies in the family taught me pain was the norm
Jon Jon watched the fists then held the steel too tight
One moment changed it all turned day into night
MONTY rose in the fire with money fallin like rain
Fifteen stackin empires but it all brought me pain
Cartel thunder struck left my truck painted red
Friends gone in a flash had to play like I'm dead
Fled naked cross the Rio prison caught me so cold
Just a number in the cage but my story ain't told
JB rebuilt sober bricks stacked to the sky
Backyard grave broke the peace had to leave or die

Three years Mexico silence ghosts in my mind
Honest grind brought me back left the past behind
From ashes to the ocean now I sail with the wave
Racalvin rule the seas every scar God gave

Great attitude thank the Lord for His grace
Through the hell and high water He kept me safe
Gratitude my armor pain turned to praise
Pirate King wear the crown for the rest of my days

Offered up my time to the Spirit so true
Every name was a mask but the soul shined through
Walked the valley of death crossed the rivers so deep
Mercy woke me each morning gave me peace in my sleep
Kids laughin now free love unconditional flows
Projects retired me early watch the legacy grow
South Texas roots twisted but the branches break chains
No more runnin from shadows just dancin in rains

Racalvin the Pirate King sailin horizons wide
Conquered every storm inside gratitude my guide
All the fallen soldiers ride with me still
Great attitude heal wounds that the streets couldn't kill